back of di brain thoughts. 2

I did get that journal btw :)

back of di brain thoughts.

I cut my hair whenever something bad happens in my life, but now i'm beginning to run out of hair lol.

Damn (a year went by just like that)

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This doesn't feel right 

but somehow it's all too familiar to me 

I don't really want to do this 

but I'm left with no choice.

It hurts me when I think about it

because you haven't actually done anything to me 

yet I feel like you have done the most 

They told me not to trust you

They told me not to love you

To have no faith 

They told me not to believe in you 

and so I did 

I have no faith 

I questioned you 

& I questioned myself

I questioned if my love was wrong 

I questioned If my needs and desires to be loved were wrong 

a sin.

Sin

that's what they called it

evil, dirty, filth

I try to keep a brave face.

but I'm scared

I'm crying 

I feel like I have just truly found myself 

yet I have never felt so lost

I want to put all of my troubles in you again.

I want you to make things right

& sleep a little easier at night

But since you continue to remain out of sight 

I think I should end it here with you now,

Just to be polite 

25.04.16